The weight loss journey has never been easy. You try just cutting out the junk, then you say oh just one treat. After that a full out binge, then they guilt sets in and then you binge some more. It is a vicious cycle. Then depression sits in and then you gain 10 to 20 lbs. Then you try the low carb lifestyle it works, however it is hard to manage especially when food costs go up. Of course you try the MLM meal replacement shakes, the cost of those make it hard to maintain. Then you feel the pressure to purchase more products because they add those extra benefits, when all you really wanted the basic shakes. It gets too much. You try to recruit customers so your commission will pay for them but your circle of people you know are struggling as well.
So I gave up! I did some therapy to deal with issues that caused me to binge eat, emotionally eat. You can do all these diets however if you are an emotional eater or a binge eater you need to get therapy to help you control that.
Two years ago I made a career change, I became a PSW, in the US it is equivalent to CNA, Being my size is not easy, the job is physically demanding and it I want to do my best. My weight holds me back. After seeing some things I had to take a hard look, and make a tough decision. I decided to take that step to go for Bariatric Surgery. It has been a year long process for the pre-op. In February I am getting the Gastric Sleeve. Some may think it is the easy way out, however it isn't. There are a lot of changes that I have to make. Any slip up can make me really sick.
As much as I do have a mourning process of some things I can't do I must think of all that bad choices had done to me:
- stole my time with my daughter
- unhealthy weight
- contributing factor to the hormone fed breast cancer I fought
- stopped me from living the best time of my life
- made the side effects of treatment more unbearable
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