Big News

The weight loss journey has never been easy.  You try just cutting out the junk, then you say oh just one treat.  After that a full out binge, then they guilt sets in and then you binge some more.  It is a vicious cycle.  Then depression sits in and then you gain 10 to 20 lbs.  Then you try the low carb lifestyle it works, however it is hard to manage especially when food costs go up.  Of course you try the MLM  meal replacement shakes, the cost of those make it hard to maintain.  Then you feel the pressure to purchase more products because they add those extra benefits, when all you really wanted the basic shakes.  It gets too much.  You try to recruit customers so your commission will pay for them but your circle of people you know are struggling as well.

So I gave up! I did some therapy to deal with issues that caused me to binge eat, emotionally eat.  You can do all these diets however if you are an emotional eater or a binge eater you need to get therapy to help you control that.

Two years ago I made a career change, I became a PSW, in the US it is equivalent to CNA, Being my size is not easy, the job is physically demanding and it I want to do my best.  My weight holds me back.  After seeing some things I had to take a hard look, and make a tough decision.  I decided to take that step to go for Bariatric Surgery.  It has been a year long process for the pre-op.  In February I am getting the Gastric Sleeve.  Some may think it is the easy way out, however it isn't.  There are a lot of changes that I have to make.  Any slip up can make me really sick.  

As much as I do have a mourning process of some things I can't do I must think of all that bad choices had done to me:

• stole my time with my daughter
• unhealthy weight
• contributing factor to the hormone fed breast cancer I fought
• stopped me from living the best time of my life
• made the side effects of treatment more unbearable

So keeping all these factors in mind that is what I will remind myself.

Working on Shedding it off!

Anna

Coming Soon

 This weight loss journey isn't an easy one.  However big news is coming soon.  Stay tuned!

Sincerely,

Anna 

First Weigh In!

Yesterday was my first weigh in since starting my diet. I have been checking on my scale but I am not sure how accurate it is. It was actually pretty close. I got there an hour early and hungry but I did would not eat until after the weigh in.

I am proud to announce that I have lost 26 lbs! I am so happy.

Anna

Changes Needed

On my holidays I went to see my doctor for a referral to Dr. Poon.  He specializes in weight loss.  It is also covered under OHIP.  Honestly I did not think I would get in because previous blood work has came back fine with the exception of my iron levels.  When I went to my first appointment they went over my blood test results.  I was rather shocked, I am borderline diabetic, borderline high cholesterol and high triglycerides.  Thankfully it was caught in time.  

I am on a very strict diet.  I thought it would be hard to follow but it has been pretty easy.   The sugar withdrawal has not been so bad.  I have been agitated easily and have experienced body aches.  There where times where I just wanted to give in to the want for McDonald's or the double cheese pizza.  When I stand on my scale at home and see how well I am doing I just can't go back.  I do not want to deal with the health issues of a diabetic.  I need to be healthy for my family.  

Moving Forward to be healthy!

Anna

Giving up

To be honest I have been feeling so discouraged lately. The frustrating thing about this weight loss journey is counting calories, and measuring everything. I try to stop doing that and just being more concious of what I am putting in my mouth. Everytime I fail. The reason why I have to count calories, so I can physically see how much I am consuming. So that is when I decided to go back to the gym. When I go it makes me happy. That is my special me time. I am still taking PGX, using My Fitness Pal and going to the gym.

A good friend of mine posted this picture and it really encouraged me. It is a reminder of why I cannot give up. I am doing this weight loss for my health, so I can be happy about myself. Doing it for my family, I want to be around for Joy. To see her get married and have children. My family needs me to be healthy. 

So here is the picture. Thank you Twyla. 

Anna

Back to the Gym

It has been over a year since going to the gym.  It was not easy to go back when I returned to work. I have been really struggling a lot in my weight loss.  It has been very discouraging.  So today I started back to the gym.  Since I work close to home and the gym I am going to do it again.  I have set up a personal training session so I can go to work out and know what I am doing,  

Anna

Stressful times

It has been a while since I posted.  I have been so busy between so many celebrations happening all at once.  Starting with my birthday, wedding anniversary, Joy's birthday.  So I have been really struggling with staying on track.  On top of that personal stress going on in my life.  Wish I was able to stop stress/emotional eating.  It takes a toll on me so much.  I tried making healthier choices, honestly I hate measuring everything out, calorie counting.  It is a royal pain.  It seems that is my only solution.  I guess, it makes me more conscious of what is going in my mouth.  The struggle to get out to the gym is frustrating.  Really wish I can find my balance.  So hard to balance everything out.  I think I work until this time, I can get to the gym.  At the end of my shift I am so wiped out.  I am like, no way!!!! I will figure out what to do.

This picture of me wearing an outfit I bought and I could not fit into it.  Now I can.

Anna